The fate of that soldier.

"You said the war''s been over long enough. And it hasn't. You still suffer it in your dreams. They are thousands of stump Hardwick's longing to become clunky Hardwick's. There are other men who can't breathe. Or who wake up everynight screaming , Or who are blind or deaf or still in pain from a wound that's never been attended to. For that matter, the wars not over for the people of Germany,  because we still find it necessary to punish them savagely for a crime themselves had no say in"
                                                                                                              Sons of Adams.
                                                                                                               Henry Bingham.

When I was 17, I read a book "The fate of the American soldier". This book opened my mind to the turmoil and the religious uncertainty  of soldiers. At that early age, I  began to question the objectivity of wars.
Were do soldiers go to after death?
Do soldiers go up or down?
What does religion really have to do with wars?
What comes to the mind of soldiers when they are faced with death?
Do they think of their wives, children or do they really think of what they are going to face after death?


            These are the questions I asked myself when I was little  because they where not clear to my tender heart.  Now, I may ask these questions but I would never ask them in isolation of the government.  My idea on war is very subjective. Alot of men in high positions who know virtually nothing about warfare sit up there and give verdict that ends up affecting this minority sector. So many people are living from serious psychological issues resulting from wars and destruction. Looking at the civil war of Nigeria, it was so destructive that alot of people still carry the aftermath of the  pain . A lecturer of mine told me about a friend of his who always talks about eating lizards because of hunger during the civil war. Alot of homes, families,  and investments were destroyed beyond reasonable doubt. The most painful of all is that the civil war is something that could have been avoided if they was more strategy. No matter how much we try to conceal this issue it would never ever be forgotten in the minds of the most affected. It would forever live in the consciousness of men. History has been written by a set of bias people who would never explain critically the real reasons behind alot of stories.
       
  In Nigeria it may be different but what about in the U.s were alot of unwillingly young people are subjugated to war fronts. Alot of them have never killed animals before, and you tell them go fight for our nation. Some would scream "for the love of America"  but so many may mean contrary. In Nigeria some people get into the military not for passion but to end a living. I had two teachers who left teaching to join the army because they were not paid properly. That was really their reason and nothing else. Man has consistently taken decisions because of the lack of choice. No nation would get to its zenith when the military that is put in place is not willing.
       
   I have sometimes  questioned the brutality of the Nigerian armed force at one time or the other. But really, can you really judge them when they is nothing else for them? Some end up killing their wives and children after a days labour....I am not trying to defend the activities of  men in the army. But who ever faces war and remains the same....I haven't seen a soul. Wars affects the entirety of a person's existence. It changes your beliefs and your approach to life.  I may be wrong but think about it. An intercourse with death changes alot of things, and being in the army subjects you closer to it. I pray that the souls who have perished one way or the other during wars for they might find real peace.
           I write what I feel for what a person really feels is what speaks to others.
            All these troubled my mind deeply. So I came to a conclusion
                             " if wars can be avoided,
                                For countries should avoid them"